Right now I’m putting in many work hours. In front of my 5-year-old MacBook Pro on my $30 collapsible table from Target sitting on my overpriced IKEA chair I’m putting in these hours. Many hours meaning I only sleep the required amount my body needs to function. That’s 6 to 7 and then back to chair. The desk. And on the computer to work on what I’m striving to create for the world.
Do what you love.
This phrase has been around for years I’m sure but only recently has it actually been something worth living up to and practicing every waking day of your life. Figuring out what makes you tick or that something you truly love to do is an everlasting journey so you must start somewhere.
I learned early on that I know how to read into people and help them out. Sure I could be a therapist that actually listened and helped people instead of just telling them what they want to hear. I could be Sean Maguire in Good Will Hunting. But, did I want to be? Helping people was certainly a priority but anything worth doing is helping out someone. Construction workers, mechanics, nurses, hair stylists, and athletes all help out people. I needed to figure out what I wanted to do that would help people.
Prior to attending college in 2007 I dreamed of being an architect. While exploring the scenery I couldn’t help but see buildings as a piece of mankind that helped define how we interact. Thing is I didn’t know until now that “helping define how we interact” is the underlying love I have for what I want to do in my lifetime.
In college, I would make many mistakes that included: breaking up with a girl I truly loved, not fulfilling my promises in my fraternity, not being responsible for my high spending, and not being able to build something. I have all these ideas, which is what later made me believe that writing is a desire of mine, but I needed to build something that I could be proud of and show others.
Rather than just building something to show others I focused too hard on changing the world and when I would reach the point where I didn’t think I could change the world the project would die. This would happen for three years while at Iowa State.
Truth is I didn’t know who I wanted to be while figuring out what I wanted to do. Many nights I cried to sleep. Many mornings I cried in the shower. I was stressed. I was lost. I needed clarity and motivation. As I write this I can tell you this much…
I make mistakes. I know why they’ve occurred. I seek to better from them. I laugh at almost anything. Movie references aren’t my thing. I don’t hide my emotion. I rather stay up than sleep. I can be very blunt. I’m not good with numbers. I like my independence but also seek to please others. I have a hard time saying no. I’ve learned to say “no” and be what some would see as an ass.
I could talk more and do enjoy a good coffee talk. Point is that I am who I am and if I’m willing to be honest with myself I can stop figuring out who I am. Just take each day as it comes, live it, and learn from it to embrace a better tomorrow.
This might be wisdom. This might be a self-reflection. This even might be a pep-talk. All I know is the phrase “do what you love” means a lot to me and I’m pushing myself to finally do that. I know who I am and I know what I want to do. Just have to work now and build it out.
I love what I’m doing with Resimplify. What are you doing?
Much thanks to Jeff and Kerem for inspiring to write this from-the-heart entry. Also want to dedicate this to all my friends and family.